I am unfair to him because he doesn't know my feelings for him. I just assume that I am special for him. But as time passes by, I gradually discover that I am wrong. Those are only my illusions. I am just a friend. Nothing special. On my mind, I know that I have to let him go. Otherwise, unknown to him, he is hurting me. But then again I am hoping that indeed he is the one. And that God will give me that rainbow I am praying for in any dates from February 14 to 16 of year 2025.
I likewise pray that I will be strong. I will be able to handle and manage this heart ache once again. I pray that he will also be fair to me. Tell me what is my place in his heart. He made me fall in love with him. And yet, he is spending more time with another woman and he does not want to tell me the real score. I am just assuming everything and misinterpreting his sweetness. But at the end of the day, I am just nobody.
I am hurting. I can feel too much pain. Three weeks more from today until the end of February 16. I will endure the pain until I received the answer I am asking from God. Show me the rainbow Lord and then I know he loves me too.
If he is the one, I will wait until he is ready. But if he is not the one, then I am ready to move on no matter how painful it is for me...
